Sunday, January 15, 2012

I GOT A JOB!!!!! :-)

I got a job!!!! Yay!!! I'm so happy :-)  Just made the first thing on my "2012 New Year's Resolution" list RED. Now to work on making more things red. I am trying to find a place in Katy so I do not have to continue commuting between Katy and Huntsville. Gas is a KILLER and since I can't get rid of the truck until I get my tax return, I need to move to Katy immediately.  Then I can cross off "find a place" :-) 

After I get a house/apartment I am going to start P90X again. I was walking the track several times a week but since I work, on average, 11 hours a day during the week now, I can only walk the track on the weekends. But I have been wearing my Shape Ups at work and I am on my feet 10 1/2 hours out of the day, so that is really helping. I am really feeling it in my abs, thighs, and ass. :-)  I want to get a pair of the Reebok shoes that are suppose to do the same as the Shape Ups (can't remember what they are called). I have heard good things on those as well. Hoping I can find a cute purple pair because that is the color theme at work. EVERYTHING is purple and it is so cute :-)

so more on my job... I was hired to work the front desk at a doctor's office but I have spent a total of 5 minutes in the front office. I am learning to be an MA and I will soon be certified to certify the Pilots to fly :-) I can now give blood, injections, shots, vaccines, and take someone's Blood Pressure. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my new job!  and the doctor I work for is a retired Army Colonel so we get along great. I honestly think this is the BEST job I could have gotten. I am so lucky and thank God for giving my this job :-)  He (the doctor) said he will teach me anything I want to know and I want to learn everything!  I have decided to go to school for nursing. After working here I know now that I want a career in the medical field. :-)

Sorry this is a short post but I don't have much time. I will try to add more to this post or write a new one tomorrow after I get off of work since I am coming back to Huntsville after work tomorrow. :-)

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Happy New Year!!!!

Sitting in church this morning, my Pastor said a few things that really got my attention.  First was that how you start the new year affects how the rest of the year will turn out.  It's like getting up in the morning. If you wake up pissed off and mad at the world, then you will most likely have a horrible day.  But, if you wake up happy and ready to start your day, then you are more likely to have a great day.  It has also been proven that if you wake up an hour before you "need" to, that your day will be better because you are not rushing. I, myself, have done this and it actually does help.  Yes, you lose an hour of sleep, but after you wake up and get going, you don't really notice it much. The first few days will be rough and you may not see that much of a difference but after about two weeks of getting up an hour earlier, you will notice that your stress level has gone down and you are, all around, a happier person.

The other thing my Pastor brought up is my birthday (and my friends do love to remind me of this. lol) this year, 21 Dec 2012.... yes, the "end of the world" is on my birthday this year. YAY ME! lol All I can say is, I am having a huge party this year. lol .... It just got me to thinking about how one little "note" in a calendar made hundreds of years ago can be taken and stretched/changed to where it has people freaking out. Why freak out about some people stating that world is ending at the end of the year, when.... if I'm not mistaken... it was suppose to have ended already according to what some other PEOPLE have said????  The only person who can determine when you die is God... or you but I'm not going to get into that.  What I'm saying, is why be afraid of dying in 11 months and 20 days when you could get hit by a car or choke on a potato chip and die today?  I, personally, do not believe that the world is going to end on my birthday this year, but if it does, I am going out with a bang. I am making 2012 MY year and will not have any regrets. I am going to take chances and do stuff that I was either too afraid or too proud to try before.

Another thing that my Pastor had mentioned was a "Bucket List".  I have never made a bucket list before but am going to make a "2012 Bucket List" this year (I will make it as it's own page).  I will list everything (non resolution) that I want to do this year and will "check it off" as I complete it.  My goal, at the end of 2012 (hopefully before my birthday lol), is to have my entire bucket list checked off.

As we enter 2012, we need to have a plan.  What do you want to happen for you in 2012.  You need to figure this out and you also need to figure out what you believe in.  I'm not just talking about whether or not you believe in God, but do you believe that you should live by the Golden Rule and treat others the way you want to be treated?  Do you believe that you should help someone in need... if you see a man on the corner of the street asking for food or even some work, do you believe you should help him or do what "everyone else" is doing and just ignore him?  If you see a couple and the husband (or wife, cause that does happen) is abusing his wife (remember that abuse can be both physical and emotional), should you report it or just ignore it?  What do you believe?
I believe in God and I try to live each day by the Golden Rule.  This is hard, I mean, I think I am generally a nice person... but I am stubborn and that is a problem. Because once you attack my family or my parenting, it is hard for me to be nice to you. That is something that I am going to work on in 2012... forgiving. In the past it has taken me years... and I do mean year... to forgive certain people in my life. My Dad, for example, I won't get into details about what he has put me and my siblings through over the past 24 + years, but I just fully forgave him at the end of last year... I held a grudge for over a decade. And, as a girl, holding a grudge is rather easy. lol but that grudge that I held against my Dad caused so much unnecessary stress in my life. And I'm done with all the unnecessary stress. I am "washing my hands" of it all. So yes, I forgive him.  Will I allow him back into mine and my childrens' lives, probably not. but that's not because I don't forgive him, it's because I cannot eraser the horrible memories and the pain he caused.  I will be polite when I see him at family gatherings, but that is it.
I have always been told that I have a big heart and I tend to care about people too much.   This is because I am the girl who gives money or buys food for people out on the streets. I don't do it for everyone out there. I look at the person and I go off of the "feeling" I get from them.  I was driving in Houston last year and saw a man with a sign saying he had just lost his job and I just got this feeling of "I need to help him" and I gave him a styrofoam cup I had in my truck that was overflowing with change.  Two years ago I was leaving Little Cesar's with 5 pizzas and there was a man on the corner asking for help and something "told me" to help him, so I gave him one of the pizzas.  There is a song (and I can't remember the name at the moment) that talks about how an old woman gets a flat tire in a town that she doesn't know, and a man stops to help her... she offers to pay him but instead he tells her to go and help someone else.  She drives down the road a bit and stops at a diner and is served by a very pregnant waitress.  The woman can see she needs help and leaves her a $50 tip.  I love this song because it reminds me that "I" can make a difference. Even just smiling at someone or saying "hi" can help brighten their day and help them.  You don't have to give money to someone or buy them dinner, just be nice.  And that is something that I have learned is hard for people to do.  I spent the last 4 1/2 years in the military, stationed in North Dakota.... being a Texas girl, I'm used to the Southern Hospitality and people helping you regardless of whether or not they know you or like you... It's not like that up North. I was shocked about how rude and inconsiderate folks are.  For example, my first winter in North Dakota, I was driving down the bypass and the weather was nice, I was actually going under the speed limit (shocker, I know. lol), and I hit a patch of black ice. I did about 3 or 4 360's and was freaking out.  I landed in the middle of the road. Instead of stopping to help me, people were just flying by, honking their horns, and screaming at me to get out of the road... even though they just witnessed me wipe out.  Thankfully a couple finally did stop to help me, but I had about 5 or 6 vehicles just go right by me. I have never been able to stop and help someone on the road who has a flat tire or engine trouble, but I am going to get jumper cables and tow straps to keep in the truck so that I can help others.  I've never witnessed an accident in front of me, but if I did, I would stop to help them.
Well, this is definitely long enough for now. lol  Happy New Year's!

Monday, December 26, 2011

Saying Goodbye to 2011

2011 is almost over! Not gonna lie, I am rather happy to be saying goodbye to 2011. It started with my husband deployed to Guam and ended with my soon-to-be ex-husband stationed in California while my boys and I are living in Texas again... with my mom. I love my mom and I'm so thankful she is letting us stay with her until I get back on my feet, but I'm a grown woman. I have been on my own since I graduated highschool and went to basic training.  I feel like such a failure because I am living at home with my mom again.

I have not been "me" the last 4 1/2 years I was married. My ex is a good man, but we were not good together and it was killing me. Most people (even those close to me) do not know what all happened during my marriage. When you're married, you tend to keep the bad stuff to yourself... as far as family and friends are concerned, you have a happy marriage. I know all too well how easily it is to fool those around you into believe what you want them to believe. I tried to save my marriage multiple times, but some things are not meant to be saved. I believe God brought my ex and I together for a reason and he told me to leave when I did. I believe there is someone else out there for me and for my ex as well. He is still my best friend and will always be one of my best guy friends, but that is all we are meant to be. We have two handsome boys together and it is best for them to have two parents who are happy and divorced (or remarried), than two parents who are unhappily married to each other because of their children.

I am making 2012 MY Year!  I have a plan and I WILL stick to it. I am going to the Texas Work Solutions Center tomorrow to apply for multiple jobs in and around the Houston area.  I pray that God will bless me with a job by the end of January. I am awaiting my VA certificate to come in the mail (should be here in 4 weeks or so), so that I may apply for school.  I want to get my degree in Technical Management, which is close to what I was doing in the military. I am also toying with the idea of getting into Nursing. I had my PCA and was working part time at an Assisted Living Home while I was active duty and I loved it. I spoke with my mom about getting my CMA and CNA, but she said if I'm going to do that, I might as well just get my nursing degree.... and she's right.  The thing that bothers me with that is I came back to Highschool.... What I mean by that is, very few people have grown up in my home town and are all about drama. I'm sorry, but I have two kids and I don't deal with the childish behavior from people who are old enough to legally drink. And I have a few friends who went into nursing and I know if I do go nursing that I will here "She's just do it cause 'so and so' did it" because everyone seems to think that just because you hang out at the same place or whatever, that you are trying to be like them. Think what you want, but I am my own person. And YOU are the LAST thing I want to be!  Anyways, I'm rambling... but that's not really deterring me from going into nursing, I don't really care what others think, just don't want the drama... but it's whatever cause I would not stay in my hometown and do their nursing program. Uncle Sam and the State of Texas (Thankfully) are paying for my schooling.  I have been blessed with the opportunity to go to any school I wish, and I will do so. The reason I'm thinking about not doing nursing is because I would be working 12-20 hours a day (depending on where I work) and I wouldn't see my kids. Yes, I would be able to afford to give them everything they need, but money isn't everything. Honestly, I would love to get my nursing and Technical Management degrees.... but I'm just not sure which one I will begin with. It really depends on if I have a job by the time I get my VA certificate. If I don't, then I will go for nursing... If I do (and it's a good job that will take me places), then I will go for my Technical Management.  I'm only saying that cause I know I would need more "off" time to study and take more classes if I went nursing.

So... housing situation... I am currently living with my mom right now, as I mentioned before, and I hate it. I am too independent and grown for this.  My goal is to have my own place by March, April at the latest. I can't continue to live with my mom for much longer. It is driving us BOTH insane!

I spent over half of 2011 losing over 30 or so lbs. In 2012, I plan to tone up and work on getting my 6 pk back. I am currently in size 11 jeans but they are getting lose. I am comfortable with my size now and just need to work more on toning up my arms, thighs, and tummy.. and also work on staying in shape. People thought I was losing all that weight so I would look good for other people, but that's not true. It's not about how other people see me, it's about how I see myself and whether or not I am comfortable in my own body. I don't think I have ever been so comfortable in my body as I am now.

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Happy New Year's Y'all! :)